Not much to report.

Not much to say this time around. I'm not really in the greatest of moods... Gosh this thing doesn't want to go away does it? But that's what I get for leaving school so abruptly. People talk as if you don't exist anymore and it's heart breaking. But it happens to everyone... I'll get over it eventually. I hope.

I really need to get a job to distract me from this or something... God.

And yet again.

Because of my idiotic nature I have fallen prey to being used and tossed aside. Again. I really do hate it. I wish I could just turn into some sort of hulk-like creature and crush people, but I suppose I'll have to leave that to my mind and my doodles hm?

But yeah, picture time. Enjoy!

Interviews.

Well I just had an interview at Stevenson college for my animation course option. As it stands I don't think I will get a spot, not because of my work but because of a faulty computer. There's supposed to be one more computer in the room but apparently the tech people aren't fixing it or whatever. So I'm probably not going to get a place which sucks because it means I have to stay at Boroughmuir.

However, I do have a reserved spot in case someone wants to drop out of the class, so if anyone does I'll be able to get in. They think I'm very young for doing it though, because a few more highers will improve my chances at art colleges... Oh well.

They said if I had applied a little earlier they would have given me a spot, but I do have other options. I can either start college in January instead and have another interview in November/December, or wait another year.

They'll give me a call later on with what's happening, but I must say it doesn't look like I'll be going this year. Sucks to be me.

Strange things.

Blogs are said to be places where you write/type your feelings am I right? I have a hard time doing this through paranoia of someone reading it so I will keep it simple. As you may be aware my moods have been very...Varied through the last few blogs, on and off down spells and such.

Well, as it was said by one of my closest friends, "Hey! Maybe you've finally fallen for someone! Love does that to people." now at the time I didn't think much of the idea and completely dismissed it. After all it doesn't suit my personality at all. But after a few days of thinking and pondering it became clear that to my horror this indeed was the case. And so, I've been sickeningly giddy and high on life for a good few weeks now. To the point of me giggling and smiling for no reason and prancing around like a moron. I feel happy but I also feel like I'm being a big idiot in regards to my actions. I feel very very silly.

I suppose I can use the description I gave to my friend! I have butterflies in my stomach yet I have a large vexed expression and deny all my feelings to anyone who even tries to ask. "I hate everyone!" Usually being the one that surfaces.

But jeez, does it feel special or what? The only ill side to it is the lack of sleep I've been getting as of lately. I'm so very very tired right now, I've fallen asleep on the chair twice! Ah well, my amigos have decided to give me a deadline from telling the guy. Deadline being the right word too.... Heh, I think my feelings will not be returned but I only really face rejection, nothing else. I'm not afraid of such things. I just hope he stays my friend.

As for the art work, a little play with the smudge tool again on sketcher created this abomination below. Please enjoy!